Date: 2018-02-21 14:29
I have actually stopped women and told them in the middle of making out that I like them and I am not going to have sex with them because I want to see them again. That doesn 8767 t work at all because as soon as she hears that I don 8767 t want to have sex with her she instantly takes that to mean I am not attracted to her and now she wants me even more. I have gotten to the point where I feel like the stereotypical woman. Literally every single woman I date throws herself at me on the first date. I am not exaggerating and the last time that didn 8767 t happen was my second wife and that was in 7565. I feel like the woman, meaning, I have no clue if these girls actually like me or if they just want me inside of them. Truthfully, I have been single for two and a half years and I haven 8767 t had feelings for any of the women I have met until about a month ago. The same thing happened. I liked this girl a ton. After about the three hour time limit she jumps on me like an octopus, *censored*. I loved it. I have not felt a connection like I did with her since my second wife. She was super enthusiastic about our making out and I knew it was going very quickly towards being naked. So, I stopped, told her I needed to calm down and then I explained to her that she is wonderful and I really can 8767 t wait to see her again and I want her super duper bad but that I am not going to have sex with her that night because I want to see her again. This woman is extremely well educated. She has far more education than I do. She has a PhD and teaches at a local university. So we can 8767 t keep our hands (mouths) off of each other and after another twenty minutes we are having 8775 the talk 8776 . We decide to have sex and we decided I am going to stay the night. So we had sex a lot. It was amazing. I am still crazy about her a month and a half later and I haven 8767 t even heard from her in a month.. I bet you didn 8767 t see that coming.
I have anxiety from PTSD I take an SSRI for it. SSRI 8767 s negatively affect libido. I was crazy about her and I didn 8767 t want anything negatively affecting my libido so I stopped taking it cold turkey the very next day. I was completely unaware of the intense withdrawals. I went absolute nuts over the next two weeks and was not even self aware of how buzzard my behavior was and nobody said anything to me.
So after two weeks of being obsessive, possessive, insecure I scared her away. A few days later I ended up in the emergency room because the physical withdrawal symptoms had become so intense I could not function. That is when all of it was explained to me and They made me start taking the same exact crap again.
As my mind cleared and got back to normal I began realizing how I had acted toward her. I am so devastated with myself. I know I wasn 8767 t myself and it wasn 8767 t intentional blah, blah, blah. I just, I really felt like after two and a half years of searching I had finally found her and now she will just think of me as the crazy guy. I 8767 m not. I have never acted the way I acted in my entire life. My entire brain function was completely different. I literally was not me. It was nuts. But I can 8767 t convince her of that. She has no reason to believe me or even entertain my explanation. I wish she would. But I know she isn 8767 t obligated. I have never felt like this about someone before. I am 87 years old two marriages, plenty of dates. This woman has been ignoring me for a month and I still want her. I still want HER. I blew that. Guess it 8767 s back to the sexpots.